26 JanFix you

when you try your best, but you don’t succeed
when you get what you want, but not what you need
when you feel so tired, but you can’t sleep
stuck in reverse
and the tears come streaming down your face
when you lose something you can’t replace
when you love someone, but it goes to waste
could it be worse

lights will guide you home
and ignite your bones
i will try to fix you

high up above or down below
when you’re too in love to let it go
but if you never try you’ll never know
just what you’re worth

lights will guide you home
and ignite your bones
i will try to fix you

tears stream down your face
when you lose something you cannot replace
tears stream down your face and
i promise you i will learn from my mistakes

lights will guide you home
and ignite your bones
i will try to fix you

20 JanThe Blue Day



Everybody has blue

days.
These are miserable days when you feel lousy, grumpy, lonely, and utterly exhausted.
Days when you feel small

and insignificant,
when everything seems just out of reach.
You can’t rise to the occasion.
Just getting

started seems impossible.
On blue days you can become paranoid that everyone is out to get you.
This is not always

such a bad thing.
You feel frustrated and anxious, which can induce a nail-biting frenzy that can escalate into a

triple-chocolate-mud-cake-eating frenzy in a blink of an eye!
On blue days you feel like you’re floating in an ocean

of sadness.
You’re about to burst into tears at any moment and you don’t even know why.
Ultimately, you feel like

you’re wandering through life without purpose.
You’re not sure how much longer you can hang on,
and you feel like

shouting, “Will someone please shout me!”
It doesn’t take much to bring on a blue day.
You might just wake up not

feeling or looking your best,
find some new wrinkles, put on a little weight, or get a huge pimple on your

nose.
You could forget your date’s name or have an embarrassing photograph published.
You might get dumped,

divorced, or fired, make a fool of yourself in public, be afflicted with a demeaning nickname,
or just have a plain

old bad-hair day.
Maybe work is a pain in the butt.
You’re under major pressure to fill someone else’s

shoes,
your boss is picking on you,
and everyone in the office is driving you crazy.
You might have a splitting

headache,
or a slipped dish, bad breath, a toothache, chronic gas, dry lips,
or a nasty ingrown

toenail.
Whatever the reason, you’re convinced that someone up there doesn’t like you.
Oh what to do, what to

dooo?
Well, if you’re like most people,
you’ll hide behind a flimsy belief that everything will sort itself

out.
Then you’ll spend the rest of your life looking over your shoulder,
waiting for everything to go wrong all

over again.
All the while becoming crusty and cynical or a pathetic, sniveling victim.
Until you get so depressed

that you lie down and beg the earth to swallow you up or, even worse, become addicted to Billy Joel songs.
This is

crazy,
because you’re only young once and you’re never old twice.

20 JanThe only one

You are the only one really know

me.

The only one.

Yesterday ,today,tomorrow,till the end of my life.

20 JanPhoenix Nirvana

Listening to my weak breath in

silence
Bleeding from the gash in the chest
The only time I feel so close to death
Difficult to open the

heavy eyelids

All around are enemies and comrades
Having fallen into endless dreams
Hungry crows are

circling overhead
Which long to clean the battlefield

Allow me to touch this land
Somewhere I belong in

the end
Or maybe gone with the wind
Just like a grain of sand

Such a dying knight
Tears blur the

sight
Lightly close the eyes
Escape from the fight

We are doomed to become ashes
Even with countless

victories
But where are my glories
The life of any warriors

How I wish for a soothing rain
So blood

can be washed away
At the last gasp
No words I will say

Heaven or hell
I can not tell
Hope for a

samsara
As phoenix nirvana

19 JanWelcome

Hello,I am eileen.

welcome to

my blog.